Wait for the Lord

When I reviewed my day yesterday, I could see that there were just so many instances when my attention was largely focused on what 'I' (the 'I' that seeks self importance) had to do. I lost my sense of companionship with the Lord in the midst of those activities. Imagine me caught up trying to find twenty year old documents. I have stayed in the same house for about eighteen years (I found out from an estate agent that this is a long time by Klang Valley standards!) and so if I have them, it would be likely that I could find them! But I was not so fortunate! Of course these documents might have been kept by my brother. He has moved house three times since then and cannot locate them either.

It was good for me to have to 'wait', to go slow, in my efforts to complete this task of documentation regarding my late father's estate. The task just cannot be completed on my own timing.

I know very well that hurry is a disease of the current age. And my desire to be efficient tempts me to catch the hurry disease. In fact, much of my earlier years were lived in the 'fast' lane....not so much trying to make money, but of playing many roles as wife, mother and doctor, not to mention serving in church!

Recently, I have been praying Psalm 130. The psalmist starts by asking God to hear his voice, his cry for mercy. He is assured of God's forgiveness and redemption. But in the middle of the psalm is the psalmist's declaration that his soul 'waits for the Lord'. There are things that cannot be hurried. There are situations and relationships that cannot be solved or mended overnight. But God's Word is enough. So is his unfailing love.

Some people are so laid back that perhaps they need the encouragement to take on more responsibility. Others like myself are too easily ensnared by wanting to complete tasks and need to slow down. But in the end we are all creatures before our Creator. In the end we are all asked to "wait for the Lord".