Sabbath's condition

Took Sabbath to the vet today for the weekly check up and blood test. The anemia has improved very slightly, but now the liver enzymes are raised! This may be due to the current medications or due to the parasite. The vet thinks we should start off on the new treatment for the parasite by this weekend. Thankfully I have been able to get the drugs - an antibiotic and antimalarial drug (which he does not stock). So, it's not 'over' yet.....and I think this gets to me. It's also the uncertainty about the treatment that is uncomfortable for me. I'm the main caregiver at home and have to be around for medicine time.On treatment for the ten days, she will need more frequent blood checks, as the drugs could affect the liver. I do find myself wanting the process to be over. But even then the outcome is uncertain. These drugs have been shown effective in trials, but most vets in Malaysia have not used them. Our vet is also just giving this a try. I guess my personality seeks 'closure' especially in times of stress - it's the waiting around that is difficult. On the other hand, this is an opportunity to lean into the grace of waiting, of patience in uncertainty.

The three days of mini holiday turned out not too restful. But I went back to painting, after quite a long break. And was pleased with my (as yet uncompleted) portrait of Sabbath, something I've wanted to do for a while. Look forward to completing it by next week. In the meantime, especially appropriate for Lent is asking for God's grace of patience, to accept open ended situations.