Meagre resources

John 6: 1- 15

....five barley loaves and two fish....what are they among so many?

The last two days were very trying. Largely because I had taken on extra clinic sessions and had not made sure I cut down on other things!! I fail to remember, time and again, that that was something I could do ten years ago, but now I need (and it is perfectly sensible) to pace myself. So I ended up having to drink coffee to keep alert. And for a non coffee person, that is not good. Ended up with a heavy head in the evenings, just feeling totally weary.

So I easily connected with the feeling that whatever resources I had were just not enough..........I could 'feel' with the disciples their concern about their lack of resources......I could feel my own lack of energy. Even though I know how the story ended for them - Jesus multiplied greatly whatever little was available, I certainly did not feel it that way in my own circumstances. It was a matter of just trusting in faith that the energy would return, after a good rest. It was a matter of trusting that the Lord would indeed bring me through the couple of days...even if I did not experience any miraculous surge of energy right there and then.

Indeed, I fell asleep very early last night.. and being tired slept fairly well feeling much more refreshed today. I look forward to a quieter weekend, and even a real "Sabbath" rest.

The words of the psalmist helped through the (seemingly long) wait.......

I am still confident of this

I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living

Wait for the Lord

Be strong and take heart

And wait for the Lord....